What Hasn’t Changed?

Yet another 20th and this time it coincided with my birthday itself. Interestingly I crossed my 59th milestone, and moved on to my journey of the Diamond Year. A mixed feeling for 60th innings that will roll me over to the senior citizen status on 20 July 23. This belated (than usual) scribbling today is about some of the reflections I had on my D Day! Hope you will like it. I have again switched over from Hindi to English after six months as far as my own commitment to 20th is concerned. But I would continue to write in Hindi on a random basis. Thanks for all the appreciation you have always been showering.

Yet another year starts
This time not so routine
Yet another resolve calls
This time not really lean
Yet another 20th and…
This time rather serene
Not only it completes an
annual cycle of my birth
But has few baked beans
Unlike a few years earlier
I am excited and keen!

I am entering a new season
Am not interested in giving
any justification or a reason!
It’s my turn to give any way!
I’ve had my lessons enough
Diligently I did my homework though at times it was tough!
I overcame fears pretty much
Trust and faith kept me going
And did never really give up!

As this Diamond Year starts
I am all ideas that kick-starts
To explore not just myself
but the world in a significant way
I am getting as naughty or more
As I was not even in my forties
A bit of anxiety of being ‘Sixty’
To be bracketed a senior citizen
……yet another one year……….
But the energy n youth in me
Let me feel like coining it ‘Sexty!’

Life seems to be filled with learnings and contemplation
There are plenty of patterns
that emerges from reflections
Asking me connect the dots
And accept souls around
As inescapable connects and
Events experienced as shots!

So that life’s lessons act
as reminder to the 59 milestone
That only yesterday I crossed
The years of irking behaviour
self created ‘saviour’ syndrome
That finally dissolved in a personality check out!!!

Did I really live?…..
In each part of myself…
Nail by Nail….
Hair by Hair…
Tissue by Tissue…
That my physical body
Either got changed or died!
But something didn’t change…
Neither it lied to me ever
Nor was it dry and cried!
It remained intact and godly
Same since my teenage!
Was it my inner voice or
The ‘soul’ as an inner mate

The mute question daunts…
Did it always act as source?
Or else…….
‘Sink’ for all the evil in me
And all brightness as ‘Source’
Importantly did I transcend?
I think not, and if so……
Is there any potential…
in the incoming Diamond year
To become fine from the coarse!